What am I holding on too?

Did you ever wonder what controls you? What you really want out of life? What you are holding on to? I got a new look at the story of the Rich Young Ruler in Mark 10:17 this morning. How many times have I read that and easily said, that's not me. I am not rich. I don't hold on to money. Poor guy, why didn't he see that Jesus was more important than his riches.

But there is more to that message than just money. Now I need to put some other word in there besides money. What am I holding on to? Is it to be a great author? Or maybe known for speaking? Maybe I just want to be important? Humm. It is interesting to stop and think about this. Nobody can answer this question but me. I have to step back and look in my soul and see what really does control me. I need to listen for the voice of God, to see me as he sees me, and to be honest with myself.

Jesus' reply to the young man was "One thing you lack, Go sell everything you have and give to the poor. Then come follow me." I think his reply to me is "Go get rid of what is controlling you and come follow me." Now the choice is mine as it was the young man's. Humm. I never saw this message in these verses before but there it is. Yes, Jesus I want to follow you and be useful to you. Cleanse me and use me for your service according to your agenda. I open my hands and lift up my arms and give myself to you.

I want to do what you want me to do.
I want to say what you want me to say.
I want to go where you want me to go.
I want to be what you want me to be.
I want to give what you want me to give.
You are my God, my King!

Blessings,

Donna